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                                                                   An update in the middle of lockdown! Haloo semuanya, ga kerasa gue udah ditahun kedua gue di kuliah arsitektur. Aslinya gue harusnya bahagia banget yaa bisa kuliah arsitekture di luar negeri, antara gue cukup beruntung bisa ke luar negeri tapi juga bisa belajar arsitektur yang gue selalu mau. Udah jalan 4 bulan jauh dari rumah dan dalam keadaan lockdown di Malaysia. Jujur sedih banget dan jauh dari ekspektasi gue. Egois banget kalau gue ngerasa hidup susah banget sekarang karena gue juga tau banyak yang lebih ngalamin hal lebih parah, apalagi di jaman sekarang. How have i been doing lately? Di umur 20 tahun dan kuliah, apalagi sih kalau pengen sukses? iya kan. Gue sekarang ikut banyak banget organisasi dan bahkan magang juga. Jujur tahun 2020 itu gue banyak banget ngalamin downs yaa, tapi gimana lagi gue ngerasa kayak emang diperluin(?) tanpa 2020 mungkin gue ga akan jadi gue yang sekarang sih. Okay balik ke topik, Seka

3 am thoughts hello my blog it's been such a blast and continue being grateful with all the blessings that Allah swt gives me everyday. LIFE UPDATE : i got low UTBK score twice depressed with all the pressure that basically my own thoughts thriving with ambition than, everything fall apart when the result got exposed, i got rejected AGAIN few rejections and i handle it pretty well, basically numb apply to private universities yeay accepted, but again i want more apply to malaysia's uni waiting for the results... hopeless, everything is clashing I GOT ACCEPTED IN ITS  shit just got real but then I GOT ACCEPTED IN UPM none of these uni is my first choice, never even cross my mind that i have to be away for months from my parents Now, i'm living in malaysia alone. luckly indonesian population in malaysia is pretty big, so kampung feel closer, its already 2020, with 2019 became the most challenging year of my life. i started out with am

Hai ! pertama gue bakal ceritain kenapa gue nulis blog ini dan gue ga tau mau openingnya gimana lagi jadi terusin aja ya !     Tahun lalu gue kelas 9 dan itu masa-masa crucial gue tentang dimana gue bakal masuk SMAnya ?. Di saat itu gue udah ikut les privat dan bimble juga yaitu bimbel bta 45 bareng temen-temen gue atau bisa di bilang satu angkatan dari sekolah gue 1/2nya masuk situ. Awalnya ga nyesel banget gue belajar banyakkk banget dari bimbel tersebut dari namanya gue ga ngerti bio karna di sekolah ga dijelasin dan gue ngerti afal sampai sekarang juga. singkat cerita detik-detik UN pun dateng dan hasilnya ga memuaskan. itu slump bagi gue , point hidup gue ter-low tuh di situ. parah yang namanya kecewa dan anxiety segalanya. Bagi orang-orang masuk ke SMA x ini sangat penting dan gue ga masuk bahkan ke pilihan kedua gue ga masuk , dan gue keterima di pilihan ketiga lokal gue. i've heard a lot of bad stuff happened in this school and for a month all i wanted wa

                                                          2017 & im back :) 16 Im not in elementary school anymore, now im already in 10th grade, well technically im already in highschool ):.. time does go fast, too fast that the last post in this blog was almost 4 years ago.  THATS MEH  already got so big huh :) today basically i have a group project that our assignment was to visit one of museum in jakarta  we went to National Gallery , so we didint pick  the place but the teacger randomly picked and it was the best decision that she has ever made HAHAAHHA. So, the Museum is very big to be honest we walked around and passed out in bakmi gm.they have alot of collection from famousindonesian artist and contemporary arts ( the modern art kinda style) The first building that we entered was the main building i think , " Building A" alot of modern and artsy stuff in there and you cant bring your bag inside, you can only bring your camera and your